there’s only 1 thing i have found that can literally cure my insomnia. GOD DAMNIT, i’ll never sleep; like really sleep, again.
for the past couple of nights i’ve had the weirdest fairly vivid dreams and they’re driving me crazy. i feel like i’m in a corner of a boxing ring and these thoughts/memories just keep pounding into my skull. i’m going blind from the pain.
my alcoholic tendencies have increased like 10-fold, which i thought would make me tired but in truth only make me more internally depressed. now dont get me wrong i do feel tired…i just cant sleep.
i miss the friend/companion i had. the…
you know what Fuck it, i dont even care if she reads this anymore. cuz even if she did care at all she would have given me some sort of indication besides the lamest birthday wish i think i’ve gotten ever, which was 2 weeks ago. ugh
im finding that my eyes are heavy so im off to dream world, where maybe i can be somebody’s hero!
